Minimalist poet, minimalist lifestyle

After this morning's rather depressing blog entry I thought I'd write something a bit more cheerful - another short list of things that bring me pleasure or make me happy.

1...Reading the Sunday newspaper (usually the Sunday Times.)
2...Soaking in a hot bath.
3...Going to bed knowing that I'll thankfully usually be fortunate enough to have a good night's sleep.

UNEMPLOYED PERSON

I do it
Just to
Please
The boss.

I'll admit I cried a bit last night: a Saturday night and I'm at home on my own with nowhere to go and no-one I'm able to call on the phone...I usually pop round to a friend's house and we watch videos, but he's away working at a music festival this bank holiday weekend.

Oh how I need someone to have a bit of faith in me; to take me by the hand and invite me to join the rest of the human race.

I've never had a job, never had a relationship with anyone....I once attended a few sessions with a psychologist and she summised that I was one of the sanest people she'd ever met; having all of the answers to my problems in life, but none of the solutions.

As I perceive the situation, the two main things that define us as an individual and bring purpose to our lives are participating in an intimate relationship with someone and having a job which brings you status and money...no matter how lowly your job might appear to be, you're still included in society...that's more than I've ever been.

For relatively short periods of time a person can manage, yet struggle, when either of these crucial elements is missing from his life; but to have lived to be forty three years old and never having had the experience of either is not to live as a human being but to merely survive as a homo sapiens. The enforced loneliness and social exclusion; the feelings of uselessness, inadequacy and guilt and the unsympathetic attitudes of others...well, it just make me cry sometimes.

I suppose that in a small way though, writing this blog is helping me by allowing me to share my thoughts with other people.

ROMBALD'S MOOR STONE CIRCLE

Twelve Apostles:
Six factors
Six clockwise revolutions,
Enter by the south
Exit by the north:
Absolution.